Jennifer's Cancer Journey

I had my blood drawn for this test yesterday. Time does not lessen the anxiety. It may actually make it worse  what if all of the previous negatives were due to being in chemo? It has not been 2 months since the last round was complete. What if cancer is now going haywire my body?  I know, I should be anxious for nothing and trust in God, but honestly, sometimes it’s just hard to not stress and have anxiety. Normally, the results are back in 7-10 days. I’m praying for a negative!  

 A lot of life has happened in the since the last time I posted...that seems to be the theme... My goal was to post an update at least once a week, but I failed. I used to have a fear of failure...not anymore. LOL For real though, failing is a learning experience. Well, not in school...I don't care that an 89.5 is an A, I want a 100 anything less is a failure.  So, since the last update, not a lot health wise has happened. I did schedule my 1 year colonoscopy. My mind drifted to the original appointment with the doctor. We were both sure that my stressful life was causing a bleeding ulcer. I remember being nervous and terrified when I went into the room before the procedure. I remember the doctor noticing. He sat down on the side of the bed to try and calm my anxiety. I remember him sitting in the same place on the side of the bed when he told me he found something and it was highly likely that is was cancer. Needless to say, I am not looking forward to the colonoscopy that is...

 I have decided that I will do better with the updates...even when I don't feel there is much of an update.  Today, I tried to have a day of rest. That wasn't initially my intention though. My plan was to  get up and do all of the things that I needed to do and then do a garage workout.  That is not how my day went. I actually slept in...all the way until 7:15. If you only who how much of a morning person I am NOT, you would  be rolling on the floor right now. I am 2 weeks into a full time job and 3 weeks into half marathon training. All of that while living 48 miles from my job...in a major city. Some days it takes me an hour...others can take almost 2. Needless to say, by time I get home, I do not want to run. Add in the fact that it is still SUMMER with what feels like 100% humidity and in the 90's...not happening! So...I have been getting up at 5am and going for a run....still humid. The catch is that I have to be dressed and ready, do my run, shower, and ge...

 Things have been crazy busy!  So busy that I started this update on Thursday. It is now Saturday evening.  If I remember correctly, my last update was before my scans last Friday. The results of the scans popped up in MyChart on Saturday. There is no evidence of metastasis in the pelvic area or abdomen. However, there were a few 2mm spot on my lungs that were not present on my scan in April, BUT the swollen lymph node and spot that were on my scan in April were not mentioned. The person who read my results commented that the 2mm spots were likely inflammatory or post infected, but given my history, we need to follow up. My ctDNA test that I do monthly came back negative again. This week I had my port flush and a whole lot of bloodwork. As of now, the only results that have popped up in Mychart were from the CBC. One day it will come in without the abnormal label, but this is not the day. My RBC and lymphocytes were low, but trending up from the previous draws. My neutrop...