Test anxiety again

I had my blood drawn for this test yesterday. Time does not lessen the anxiety. It may actually make it worse  what if all of the previous negatives were due to being in chemo? It has not been 2 months since the last round was complete. What if cancer is now going haywire my body?  I know, I should be anxious for nothing and trust in God, but honestly, sometimes it’s just hard to not stress and have anxiety. Normally, the results are back in 7-10 days. I’m praying for a negative!


 

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