The poo is gone, plus all the other things...

 Quite a bit has happened since my last update. The hard part is that chemo literally knocks me out for almost a full 7 days, so I don't get around to updating. 

Home insurance did their thing and the crawl space has been remediated! 

God showed up in a very unexpected and big way and I also have 4 brand new tires. I have never had 4 new tires on my car at the same time. I am just still in awe and speechless about how it came about. 

Last Sunday was Easter. I thoroughly enjoyed my morning, despite the fact that it was still physically hard. I find it frustrating that it was hard being as far away from a chemo treatment as I could be. I got to spend the rest of my day with part of the family AND the carrier of my first grandchild! Y'all, in case you missed it, Samantha is pregnant! I am over the moon excited, I just wish my body was as excited as the rest of me. For grins, here is a photo of all (but not all) of us.

We will ignore Hannah's choice for Easter dress. LOL

We ate and then spent the evening playing games. I stayed up too late for having to leave the house at 6am for chemo. I would like to say that I am getting used to it, but it seems to be harder on my body as time goes on. 

I had to refuse the rescue nausea meds, because last time it hit me hard and I kept falling asleep driving the 10 miles home. It's not like the meds actually work anyway! I literally want to throw up for a solid 10 days straight, even with meds. When I got home, the poo guy was here for the final stages of clean up. Since treatment was early this time, so was disconnect. That happened at 9 am Wednesday. The rest of that day was so hard. I finally just had to go home. Thankfully, I had Thursday off. I slept for 14 hours. I still felt horrible and literally could not function.  I slept another 9.5 hours the next day, yet still had trouble functioning. I had to miss the Boots and Bling end of Rodeo party. I have seen the photos and videos. I would have loved every minute of it. 

You know, it is really hard to keep a good outlook and feel like I am going to kick cancer's booty when I feel so horrible all the time. I am really hoping to feel like I am living for the next week. 

Tonight, I have been told the whole family is coming over, but I don't know why. Caleb bought his firearm. He is bringing it over so I can show him the ins and outs. He needs to be comfortable with it in the Academy. Phew...one step closer the the kid becoming a cop. 

I know we are a week away,  but please pray for the next round coming up. I am losing a brush full of hair daily, and then some. Please pray for me to feel well enough to function...eat, sleep, work, laugh, cry, walk, do all of the bodily functions normally. Please pray that these little aches and pains are the chemo and neulasta doing what they are supposed to do. I know for sure that I have one more round, possibly two, before my scans. The results of those scans determine what is next. Stability is good, but I am praying for a miracle. I want shrinkage and surgery to happen. The fear is real. The fear of chemo not working, not the fear of death, but the fear of not living. There is still so much more that I want to accomplish. 

Up Next:

• chemo on April 20
• Disconnect on the 22
• Family night at the Academy on the 22
• Busy work day on the 23
• Samantha's next appt/ultrasound on the 27
• Scans on May 9
• Appointments the following week with oncology, palliative care, liver surgeon, and abdominal surgeon to discuss next steps