All good things must come to an end...

 I am getting ready to say goodbye to the extra energy that I have had. I am thankful that I have had a chance to enjoy life some these last 2 few weeks. Tomorrow is attempt number 2 of round five of the healing juice. To say that I am dreading tomorrow would be an understatement. I want to feel good and in my head it seems a little counterproductive to make myself feel so bad for so long. I know this gives me the best shot at the long run...the long run being a long cancer free life. 

I have tried to cram in all of the fitness things that time  and energy would allow. I am not sure what is going on with this influx of fat and I don't like it. I seem to be gaining 2 lbs a week despite eating a healthy low calorie (not restricting) diet and increased activity. All I know is that the scale better stop going up! It is not good for me mentally to feel and see all of the extra weight on my body. Sounds like a stupid prayer request, but please pray that it will level out. 

Prayer requests for tomorrow and beyond: Please pray that my white blood cell count is good enough for chemo. I feel better than I did  2 weeks ago, so it should be. Please pray that my liver numbers continue to trend back down to normal and my iron levels keep going up. They are so close to being normal. Side effects...the cold sensitivity and neuropathy never fully went away. Please pray it is not too bad this go around. Also please pray for the muscle spasms, nausea, and fatigue. Hannah's senior night at softball is Tuesday night. I will be connected to the pump and want to feel well for that night. 

Thanks for following me along this journey and for the prayers. I don't think I could keep the mindset that I have going without the support of all y'all. 

Just remember, in the coming weeks-- clean hair and makeup do wonders!

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