How do you like your bacon?
Well, how are you feeling?
I hope you are well.
I am doing better mentally and physically than Thursday! Phew...what a relief! Thursday was rough!
I got some sleep! Of course, I am still tired. Will there ever be enough sleep? Probably not!
I ate some things! I am still nauseous though. The nausea is a different kind of nausea. It is not the sour stomach, just let me throw up and be done with it nausea. It is like a pit. The pit is deep in my stomach and occasionally into my throat. . Sometimes it churns and other times it is just there. Do the nausea meds help? I have no idea, because the nausea is just there. Not a fan!
The neuropathy really really bugs me. My mouth is still numb. My hands and feet are still weird. Is this what my mom felt with her MS? At one point today my hands were shaking uncontrollably. That was new. Is is a normal thing? The cold sensitivity had waned a little, so I was not as careful when touching things. Well, I got a shock in the fridge this morning! Apparently it can come and go. I also got a jolt when I picked up my phone this morning. I guess it got cold last night...
I added a cute puppy photo of Grunt just for grins. He was such a round rolly polly!
Wedding venue shopping Friday was a bust. Lots of things could be overlooked because the price was right, except the thought of the little old aunt sitting at a stop light after dark (or even during the day) in this neighborhood. So, still searching for the perfect budget friendly spot. I even managed to go grocery shopping after the trip across town and I did not feel the need to ride the scooter and my daughters didn't make me. However, I did let the girls go on a bike ride without me. I guess one way or another I will have to learn my limitations. I chose the easy way this time!
This is going to seem completely random, but I really really want some crispy bacon. Now, I love bacon, but can count on 2 hands (and maybe 1 foot) how many times a year I eat bacon. I don't know why, but I am craving crispy bacon. I don't know how you eat bacon, but mine has to be crispy...not burnt. I can't eat bacon that goes limp when I pick it up, for some reason I gag. I need it to just be firm and crispy. Do you know what I mean? Please don't tell me if you are a limp bacon person. I don't know if we could be friends!
Do you know who made the perfect bacon? My grandma. I miss her bacon!
Enough about bacon...let's talk about food. Since having my ascending colon removed in December, I am still learning what I can and cannot, or should and should not eat. Add in chemo and the list of really shouldn't eat grows. It also depends on which doctor is telling you what. Some of it is trial and error. It is not a fun game! I would like the trial without the error.
Fiber? One doctor says low, but it is good according to another. I have learned by experience that some foods that are an excellent source of fiber can really really hurt...for days! Let's stick to low fiber for now!
Dairy? I think this one is mostly a no. This is sad! I love cheese. I do confess to adding blue cheese to my salad last night. I like sampling all of the cheeses. Please never give me a basic cheese! These fancy cheeses are probably a no for someone going through chemo...BOO! For the record, American cheese is not cheese! You will never convince me otherwise.
Fruits? Who knows anymore? Wash well, but preferably peel. Y'all, I eat an apple every single day. I don't want to peel it!!!! I like my apple peel. Also, people keep asking me, "Does an apple a day keep the doctor away?" My answer is "Yes, until it doesn't." Just don't ask...I am still bitter about this one. I am about to pull my frozen blueberries out to start adding to my yogurt. Strawberries are a high residue thing (and very dirty), so those may be out. I do miss my morning protein and berry smoothies.
Do you really want to know what I constantly crave? Vegetables!!! If I had a veggie tray in front of me, I would be in heaven. They are good for you...unless they aren't. What does that mean? I am still figuring it out. Peel them or cook them...ugh. Don't eat them cold, because that will hurt. Don't eat them raw, because of the contaminants. I just want to chomp on a carrot and say, "What's up doc?" One day last week I was staring into an open fridge. I knew that I really really wanted something, but I had no idea what. Finally, I saw a bottle of green juice. I picked it up at the store the week before as a way to supplement without having all of the fiber. I grabbed that thing and chugged it like it was the last drink on earth. It was so good...not really, but it felt so good. At that moment, my body just wanted green. Do you know what my biggest hurdle with eating vegetables is? Washing, cutting, peeling, cooking...the prep work is my biggest hurdle. Unfortunately, the folks in my house don't love veggies like I do. This means that if I want to eat them, I have to be the one to do all of the work. I will find a way to get my green things!
Tonight, my heart hurts. I have learned of yet another person facing a possible cancer diagnosis. This makes 5 since my own diagnosis on November 23. Five...from all walks of life. Five different families. Five different cancers. One has already lost the battle. Why? Isn't that the question we all want to ask? Isn't it the question we all want to know? Why was I chosen? What good will come of it? How can I use this diagnosis to help others?
New food find...what I had for dinner tonight kind of hurts...
Comments
Post a Comment